MY RELATIONSHIP WITH INTUITION.
Growing up on a ship as an only child for nearly ten years of my early childhood, I had time; lots of it. Time to entertain myself, time to explore the corners of the large cargo vessels my father use to captain and time to talk to myself.
Those conversations with myself ranged from talking to my stuffed toys to reciting poetry to the open seas, but what I remember most were the conversations I had with the person inside. I grew confident being alone and I never felt like I needed anyone. Of course at the time I had no idea what I was doing but looking back I know I realise I was talking back to my inner voice and connecting with my intuition. I had this deep connection with who I was by the time I was ten without any peers or friends and only my parents as companions. It was natural that I had to make friends with myself.
This isn’t to say I didn’t struggle with self-confidence or confusion later in my life - I probably did more than most children, when I moved back to land.
I never felt ‘normal’ on land, and I never felt like I could fit in. I remember my mother telling me I was overly emotional and impulsive and my friends would get bored with my over-thinking and over-sensitivity. I moved from one hobby to another never knowing what was right for me and I struggled with conformity. I used to get these intense feelings that I must do something, like take up horse-riding or pastel art, but then leave it id it felt wrong - as I grew up I began to realise, I left things that my intuition told me weren’t right for me.
It wasn’t until I was in my adolescent years that I began to become rather passionate about my gut feelings, so much so that I’d have arguments with my mother if I didn’t like someone and almost always something would turn up much later to prove me wrong, like a family friend everyone through was sincere but turn out to be a back-stabber - I couldn’t shake deep feelings of resistance and I’d insist I disliked someone without knowing them, merely being in their presence. If there was something I was meant to do, I’d procrastinate and do nothing because somehow I knew it wasn’t right for me - and most of the time it turned out I was right.
As I became older, I began to offer my intuition more space in my life. I began to listen to my inner voice asking me to trust my gut instinct. The moments I enjoyed being on my own grew, I never felt I had to always be with friends or other people and I used those moments to connect with my intuition - those were the moments I felt pure freedom.
Intuition is inside us all, it’s not some magical phenomenon, your intuition is your ability to understand something instinctively without conscious reasoning; that deep gut feeling that we sometimes push aside for being frivolous believing it’s our silly thoughts coming in the way of practicality.
Connecting with your intuition lies deep within our ability to trust ourselves with our relationship with food, life and our inner voices. In Savoured, we will slowly get to understand our intuition through food, flavour, inner voice and intentional living - you’ll learn to connect with it, strengthen it snd grow confident in reclaiming this natural power within us all.
